Wednesday, December 31, 2008

My 2009 Resolutions

  1. De-clutter - for every item I bring in, an item must be taken out.
  2. Track my spending - I have my spreadsheet ready.
  3. Sew- I would like to see at least 15 items. Preferably, a coat, 3 dresses, 3 pants, 2 jacket and 6 tops.
  4. Reestablish Game Night - my son has begging for this.
  5. Organize -EVERYTHING
  6. Blog at least once a week.
  7. Listen and observe- life seemed calmer when I use to do that.
  8. Reach my financial goal in increasing my EF.
  9. Make one new friend (LOL, since I've been purging some).
  10. Re-connect with true friends from back in the day.
  11. To be a better mom.
  12. Exercise at least 2 a week (I want to be a solid sz 6, not borderline sz 7 like I am now.
  13. Start dating again (ugh!  Thought, I was done after all these years...)
  14. Pamper myself once a month

Okay, I'm going to stop there as that's enough to make me and my life better in one year.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

2008 - A Year of Releasing

Letting go is hard for me.

When I love, I love hard... to the core.

So, early on in 2008, I had to deal with "releasing" two people that I cared and loved deeply.  Pretty much around the same time.

My grandmother died Feb. 4.
Loosing my grandmother was/is... a feeling I can't describe. I know, I will always love and miss her.

When I reached out to a friend [prior to my grandma's death] for a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on; someone, who I thought would be there for me.  I had no reason to think she wouldn't.   I'd been there for her for, so many reasons, so many seasons.  NOT!!!  Her words to me still echo in my mind.  It was another blow that I just wasn't ready for.  I remember telling her, I was going to go and I hung up the phone.  I didn't call her anymore, didn't accept her phone her emails, but didn't reply.

Year 2008 was definitely a lesson in letting go and learning that not always will a person be the friend that you are to grandmother, was due to death and the other two, due to circumstances...LIFE.

I was falling into a real depressed mode and I believe if it wasn't for my son and his persistence..."Come on mommy, let's go or play [insert some fun kid activity]."   I just might have crawled under that rock.  I used so much leave on the job, I couldn't take my normal week off for Xmas.  Now, I never [since giving birth to my son of 8 years] work Christmas Eve or the day after Xmas, but I'm here to tell you my butt was there!  

I don't think letting go will ever come easy for me,  no matter the circumstances.  But, I know there comes a time when you grow.

I'm going to follow Adrienne's lead,  my ceremony is tomorrow.

Looking forward to 2009

Wishing you all a Happy, Healthy and Safe New Year!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

My Super Hero

The Christmas brunch was nice. The kids enjoyed getting their faces painted. I am fascinated by this art and how quickly it is done.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Don't Drink and Drive...per my son

My son and I are in the car and a commercial on the radio about drunk driving comes on...states something to the fact about are you going to kill "Jennifer" tonight...don't drink and drive. This is the convo between my son and I, as I'm drinking my SODA

SON: "Mommy, put the bottle down. Do you want to kill "Jennifer"?"

MOMMY: "HUH? What are you talking about and who is Jennifer?" [shows you I was paying attention to the road and not the radio]

SON: "They said, Don't drink and drive. Jennifer, is the girl that's going to get killed tonight by someone drinking and driving. They probably not paying attention and hit her when she is trying to cross the street. I wish, I knew her so, I could tell her to just stay home today."

We went back and forth as I tried to explain to him the real meaning behind "drinking and driving" and that "Jennifer" is a made up person, but that it could very well happen to someone.

Well, aah, it didn't go very well and I ... um, had to "put the bottle down". I hope he was just referring to yesterday only, since he believed it supposedly was to happen then.

Seriously, please do not drink alcohol and drive, don't allow a loved one to do so either. Too many innocent and not so innocent people have lost their lives to drunk driving.