Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy V-Day!

I hope you all are having a wonderful Valentine's Day.

I don't have a Valentine this year. Actually, last year we were "together", as a couple, but we didn't spend Valentine's Day together. It was not one of our best V-days. We've had really nice V-days and well...I will cherish those moments.

Although, I'm single (not by choice) I offer this peace of advice, celebrate your love for someone everyday or as often as possible. Don't wait until Valentine's Day. Merely stating "I Love You" should do the trick, give flowers just because, spend time with one another, or do something he/she enjoys. Show your appreciation of one another.

Although, we are apart, no longer a couple after so many years together, I'm fine. I realize we need this time apart to truly grow and discover ourselves and what we truly want in a mate. I pretty much know what I want, but this time apart allows me to reflect and see how I could have better handled some situations.

One more piece of advice...If you have trouble inside the home; going outside the home won't resolve the issue. Keep lines of communication open. Work it out.

Tell me how you and your loved one celebrated Valentine's Day? Hopefully, I can use some of your ideas next year...wink, wink ;-)

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

I Just Want To Crawl Under A Rock!

Have you ever felt that way? I have for a long time now. I try to shake it off, but I don't want to shake no more. I'm really trying to shake this depressed feeling. I continue to put one foot in front of the other for the sake of my child. I continue to tell myself your "sunny day" is coming, but it's been one black cloud after another. I want off this road, but can't seem to find my way.
Have you ever known someone who treat people like "poo poo" and have nothing but good things come their way...what is that about? I TRY not to look at other peoples "sunny days", but it's hard when those clouds follow me...all along while I'm singing (to myself of course) "the sun will come out tomorrow...tomorrow...tomorrow...tomorrow etc.," 365 times.
I realize the grass is not always greener on the other side, but give me a chance to find out ;-). Just kidding (sort of). I WANT HAPPINESS!!! When I think it can't get any worse it does. Awe, don't tell me about "The SECRET"...I've tried thinking nothing but good positive thoughts. Nada! No, seriously I've had a semi good day here and there (single digit).
I pulled out my Purpose Driven Life book and plan to read it again from the beginning. Although, it sounds like I'm ungrateful, I'm really not. I thank the Lord for my child, my childs health and other family members as well as other blessings. I just would like some "sunny days"...I don't think that's too much to ask for.

What do you do when you just want to crawl under a rock? How do you shake that feeling?

I'm ok folks, no need to contact the authorities...I'm just having a moment.

Monday, February 4, 2008

Loosing Grandma

H. Lenell Page ~
May you rest in peace~
We will ALWAYS love you!!!

I lost my grandmother today. She'd been fighting cancer since 2005. This past friday she had a stroke; she was very weak. My grandmother didn't deserve to suffer. When I visited her Saturday, while crying a river, I prayed that God would end her pain and suffering. Although, I will truly miss her, I could no longer be selfish and pray for God to allow her to continue to fight and hang on. I "Let go and Let God". My mother, called this morning to say she had passed around 5am. I thanked God for ending her pain and suffering and taking her "home". Now, rather than asking God to strengthen my grandmother, my prayer is to ask God to strengthen my family. She was the "hub" of our family. She knew what was going on with family in Ohio, Virginia, Maryland, D.C., PA. etc.

My son was with me on Saturday and although, I don't think he understood what was taking place. He gave me a hug and said, "Mommy it's going to be okay...Grandma is going to be okay". While hugging him, I thought, not this time baby.

I debated if I should tell my him today that she passed. When I woke him up to get ready for school, I decided to wait as I didn't know how it would effect him. Itook him to school as normal.

My child was use to going to see Grandma practically every day. So, when we went straight home after picking him up from school, he asked, "Are we going to go see Grandma?" I shook my head no. That's all I could do at that point. Once we arrive home, inside the house, I told him that Grandma died today and that I'm glad we were able to see her before she moved on. He took it better than I thought. He cried a little and said he would miss her. One of his regrets is not being able to thank Grandma "for the toy she gave me."

My child has never attended a funeral and again, I don't know how this will effect my child. Any advice you have is welcomed.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Saving with Coupons

Now that my childs appetite is changing, my grocery bill is too. Everything seems to be increasing except my salary.

It's that time to go grocery shopping. I just recently heard about the Grocery Game. It sounds helpful, but I don't think I'm ready for it. I just started clipping and accumulating coupons. I don't have many coupons clipped. I plan to go through the Giant and Super Fresh sales paper and see what coupons I have that corresponds to their sales.

I've been told the key to getting the most for you money using coupons is:
  • clip only the coupons of products you use

  • use the coupons when the item is on sale

  • attempt to use the coupon when it can be doubled

I've heard stories of people cutting their grocery bill in half using coupons. I would love to be one of those people. I found, a site where you can print coupons online. It's a pretty good site. Check the site out.

I'm getting a little excited about going grocery shopping tomorrow. I hope, I save some money.

Do you have any inside secrets of saving with coupons that you would like to share?