Showing posts with label death of loved one. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death of loved one. Show all posts

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Dread Early Morning Phone Calls

 
Yesterday, morning the phone rang early. I have always been leary of an early morning phone call ever since, I received an early morning call July 3, 1996. Back then, my uncle, who was more like a brother to me collasped at work and was rushed by ambulance to the nearest hospital.  I received a call early in the morning from my mom of this news and was to meet her and my maternal grandmother at the hospital.

 I arrived at the hospital first and went to the desk inquiring about my uncle and the desk nurse instructed me to go into this room as I waited for my mom and grandmother to arrive. I patiently was waiting for them to arrive and I started to notice the pamphlets in the room, "How to deal with death of a loved one" and a poster on the wall of a image ascending to clouds.  I freaked, ran out of the room and ask the nurse was my uncle stable and if I could see him at that time.  She asked me if my uncle mom or wife had arrived.  I told her that my mom and grandmother(his mother) were on their way.  My uncle was not with his wife at that time and she was living in another state, so nobody was going to wait for her to get their before we saw him.  The nurse sent me back to the room and I broke down, while crying I asked her why was she sending me to that room and whynot the emergency room waiting area, which was right around the corner. I remember her telling me to please go in the room and the doctor will be out to talk to me.  I didnt want to go back in that room and another girl who was waiting to see her uncle who wasin a fishing accident came and gave me a hug and offered to go in the room with me. 

It was like the floor dropped under my feet when the doctor came out and said, "we did all we could do, but Mr.[my uncle]did not make it" as he was asking me to identify the body, my mom and Grandmother walked in.  {I did not want to do it, but I didn't want my Grandma having to  do it(she ended up wanting to see him) that image of my uncle lying on a gerney with needles sticking out of him is still embedded in my brain) {such a sad day}
 
Yesterday, the telephone rang early and it was from my step-grandmother's house, it was her nurse and my aunt telling my father of his mother's passing.
 
Today, I received a text at 8am from my girlfriend that her mom had passed earlier today.  I don't like early morning calls and now I'm adding early morning texts too.  My friends and family members know this and do not call if it is absolutely necessary or an emergency.
 
May Mrs. Alice Downs (step-grandmother) and Mrs. Margaret Culver (Best Friend mom) Rest In Peace and blessings showered among the families and loved ones.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Gone...but NEVER forgotten!

REST IN PEACE GRANDMA
YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN MY HEART!
Aug.28, 1928 - Feb. 4, 2008


Two years,
you've been gone.
 Two years,
too long!

Love you, ALWAYS
~Tracey

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Grandma would have been 80 years old

I miss my grandma. I think about and talk to her picture practically everyday. Today, she would have turn 80 years old.

Happy Birthday Grandma!!!

Our birthday's are both in the month of August. When she passed, I was given her birthstone ring...I've worn it ever since. I periodically look at it and remind myself how it looked on her hand. I find myself rubbing it sometimes...I realized this the other day at work.

I wanted to cry when my son starting singing Happy Birthday to Grandma, while looking to the sky.

We both miss her.

R.I.P Grandmother.
With love Always!

Monday, February 4, 2008

Loosing Grandma

H. Lenell Page ~
May you rest in peace~
We will ALWAYS love you!!!


I lost my grandmother today. She'd been fighting cancer since 2005. This past friday she had a stroke; she was very weak. My grandmother didn't deserve to suffer. When I visited her Saturday, while crying a river, I prayed that God would end her pain and suffering. Although, I will truly miss her, I could no longer be selfish and pray for God to allow her to continue to fight and hang on. I "Let go and Let God". My mother, called this morning to say she had passed around 5am. I thanked God for ending her pain and suffering and taking her "home". Now, rather than asking God to strengthen my grandmother, my prayer is to ask God to strengthen my family. She was the "hub" of our family. She knew what was going on with family in Ohio, Virginia, Maryland, D.C., PA. etc.

My son was with me on Saturday and although, I don't think he understood what was taking place. He gave me a hug and said, "Mommy it's going to be okay...Grandma is going to be okay". While hugging him, I thought, not this time baby.


I debated if I should tell my him today that she passed. When I woke him up to get ready for school, I decided to wait as I didn't know how it would effect him. Itook him to school as normal.

My child was use to going to see Grandma practically every day. So, when we went straight home after picking him up from school, he asked, "Are we going to go see Grandma?" I shook my head no. That's all I could do at that point. Once we arrive home, inside the house, I told him that Grandma died today and that I'm glad we were able to see her before she moved on. He took it better than I thought. He cried a little and said he would miss her. One of his regrets is not being able to thank Grandma "for the toy she gave me."

My child has never attended a funeral and again, I don't know how this will effect my child. Any advice you have is welcomed.